Getting Through Corona Virus

Right at the beginning of this whole mess, I made the decision to stick to my plan and go to Palm Springs for #altsummit2020

While I was there, I sat with @jamimilne and she asked me a series of questions and took portraits.

Somewhere towards the end, she handed me her deck and invited me to draw a card. I got “see with eyes of love.” I’m really trying to do that right now, but it’s hard.

I’m spending way too much time reading the same information from a million sources, I’m spending emotional energy annoyed at the hubris of those still going out, I’m spending a lot of time holding my three year old while he cries and chants “I want to play at the playground,” (this literally lasted 15 minutes today)
I’m trying to figure out what work is still essential, what needs to go on hold and how those decisions affect everyone else in the collaboration chain.

I know you are too.

We’re going through it ya’ll. We’re going through it.

But you can’t go over it. You can’t go under it. We gotta go through it. And, I don’t know who needs to hear this right now, but we gotta stay TF home. Seriously. Just do it.

Today, I was working out “postponed, not cancelled” language with a Director and he asked me “so how ARE you?” And I realized I’d been moving a mile a minute all day long - barely breathing a full breath. Trying to keep a sense of purpose and order and stability... and in doing so, I definitely didn’t feel stable.

So while Drew and the kids worked in the garden, I took a full reboot - a nap with a pillow over my head. I dreamed of the future. When this mess is a memory.

Slowing down is not my strong suit.
But I don’t think we have a choice at this point.